Today as I was driving home from work, scanning the radio stations, one station caught my attention when I heard the word "Wicca", when I looked down at the dial, it was a Christian radio station.  The topic of the Craft and Wicca was being discussed on a Protestant radio station...and by all accounts the entire thing was very positive and informative...they had two authors on the station who weren't putting down the Craft or it's people.

This is the first time I have ever come across something so nice to listen to...even the call in section of the show was done with respect and taste, right down to the part about conversion and apologetics.

I will find a transcript of this soon, and I will share it with all of you as soon as I do...you will be amazed at how this program sounded and how much respect was shown to Pagans and Wiccans the world over...even with the evangalistic desires of the program, they even addressed the issue of nature and how Christians needed to pay closer attention to the environment "like the Pagans do"  ;)

It's that time of year again, and I would wish you all the best in your celebrations and rituals tonight!!

~Raven

I wanted to let everyone know that I have not decided to quite smoking again...I don't know where that came from.

When Moonwater left her comments in my blog the other day, the words "breaking bad habits/cycles" came into play in my journey. For me, these aren't physical habits, but spiritual ones that inhibit my way of thinking, and cause the constant mental issues and problems....(it reminds me of how I quite biting my nails at 27 years of age-fake nails for a week, and the urge was gone-maybe that's how I should look at this...nothing fake, just putting things in the way when the other threatens to become a problem for me).

I must first learn to come to terms with the female aspects of things, and how I view mother, and learn to break from that...it's that simple. I have to stop worrying about what others think...this is the connection I made while I was emailing a friend on Sunday...so, the next step is breaking out of the old needs and habits that I cannot really live with...I must be who I am, and drop the bad things that are in my heart, and stop going back and forth, when I know what I believe, and I should stop letting others influence me in my own beliefs. I need to be myself without worrying about others.

There are other things involved with this...one is moving out and getting my own privacy...another is just ignoring my family and doing what I need to do, and start to break the viscious cycle of trying to please others...another is to get rid of one particular blog that is there to impress a friend who doesn't need to be impressed by me....she, like all of you, loves me for the soul inside, not for the religion I practice., I need to get away from that mentality.

I have to say one thing here, though....all of you have come out over the past few months to encourage me, love me, give me advice without realizing you were doing it, and you are all there for me in your varied ways...and that means the world to me....thank you!!

I am finding my way to seeing that the Goddess is in me as She is in all Creations!!

Raven

Walking along the sands of time,

I see the future mingled with the past,

Confused for the moment, but knowing truth.

I know the things my heart longs for,

The plans and schemes of long ago,

They aren't abandoned, just lost for now.

The waves of the ocean crash about 

On this moonlit night, I look out to sea,

And before me is the vast questions of my life.

When the waves of yesteryear have died,

The fires grown long cold in my heart,

I feel the warmth of a new kind, the moon upon skin.

Never in my wildest dreams,

Would I think that I would be standing here,

Staring out from this sandy shore, wondering.

When I begin to walk and look about,

I know I will see the things that

I am meant to see, the presence of footprints.

The question always remains inside of my hear

When I see these footprints moving forward,

Who do those footprints belong to, and will we meet?

~Raven

29 July 2008

Alright....I took this from Dragon Muse, but I was bored and curious!!!  HA!!!

You Are a Sleek Black Bra!

Subtle, sophisticated, and classy. You're not the first woman a man notices in the room... But you're the one he remembers a week later. You need a guy who will make a lasting impression on you too!

The fog is beginning to lift for me.  At least I am starting to think so.

I emailed a friend yesterday, and while I did so, a connection was made within my mind that I will need some time to explore.  This revelation brightened my day, and the sun started to shine a little brighter for me...and it was way to warm for this girl...so I sent it to Willowluna for her bar-b-que today..lol

No, really, I actually looked at myself realized two things:  1)  I am not really taking care of myself physically...oh, I am washing and showering, but my lack of care for myself has left me forgetting how to shave my legs...missed a large part of the back of my legs!, and my skin needs a LOT of TLC!!!  I have been neglecting myself.  2)  I really need to work within myself to figure out why I am like I am. 

I spent a lot of time yesterday just being alive, listening to the sounds around me, and just letting life be what it is for the moment.

I don't know where this journey is taking me, all I know is that it's a very rough journey for me...and I am most eager to see where it leads.

August and Lammas are fast approaching, and I hope everyone has everything ready, and is up for it all.

~Raven