I know, I know...where have you been??

Well, I have been busy doing enough work to make myself ill, and going home to read a book to detox...and drink tons of Earl Grey tea. I haven't been much company for anyone lately.

I did have an enjoyable weekend catching up with an old classmate. It was good to see that some people in life take it and make it as fun as possible. This person does, and I hope to one day learn how he does it...lol

I have been reading a lot of Sherrilyn Kenyon. For anyone who is a vampire fan, this woman can write some great stuff. Not like Stephanie Meyer, but for adults with romance involved too.

Every story is about a Dark Hunter, Dream Hunter or Were-Hunter, and each one is seperate, but you can always see who is going to be the next one to be written about. I love all of these stories so far, and I highly suggest them to everyone. I think I must have stayed up half the night quite a few times to get through as much of each story as I can. I hear some stories fall flat, but I am not far enough into it to know yet.

I joined the Dark Hunters.com forum for the author. It is so much fun to chat with them...and to find out about upcoming books by the author herself!!

I have moved myself over to the new Covenspace under Raven1746....it's the same me, but in a different place. I will start writing some more over there, and am planning to transfer all of my stuff here to another blog that I have somewhere else. I am not sure if I am going to put my poetry over at the new site or not...I will let you decide that one, my friends.

I have already scoped out the new site to find my friends from here, but if I missed you, please let me know. I don't mean to upset anyone or offend them...I am a bit of a scatter brain lately, trying to get myself back to where I need to be....and figuring out the new site took a bit of time, but I think I can handle it.

I love the little emoticons at the bottom of the page for comments and for blogs...Kudos, Pythia!! Marvelous!!

Blessed be, my dear ones!!

Raven

It's been a while since I have written. I have had my nose stuck in books for a few weeks, and I guess I just let time run away from me again.

My manager at work told me yesterday that I shouldn't rush at my job or worry over every little thing...that everything will get done as it does, and it doesn't matter if it doesn't. What kind of attitude is that for a manager to take? I am not angry, but seriously, I am not lazy at work either. I like to have the job finished before the owner comes in at 4:30 in the afternoon to take over. I like knowing that I am doing all I can to make sure that the job is done properly. I want a raise and consideration for more later on because of my job performance...what can I say.

I also like to get finished so I can sit arounda and read for the last hour or two of work...makes it interesting.

I can't wait to get this day over with. The weekend looks like it will be a nice one. I am looking forward to getting the opportunity to walk in the park and look at the changing leaves. It's so beautiful, it wrenches at my heart.

I found out the other day, that my insurance plans at work also include vision coverage, so I am going to set it up so that I can go to the eye doctor soon...this is nice, because I won't have to pay huge sums of money to see...lol I also have to start making other appointments for other exams soon too. It seems that I have been getting sick a lot over the past few months, and I want to see if it's due to stress, or from the chemicals at work.

I have never been sick when working in this business before...at least at other companies, but this one doesn't take care of it's equipment, and you can smell the chemical cleaner all over the place...one of our new employees had to quit because it gave him headaches and nose bleeds...he isn't used to that anyway, but if he had been with another company, that wouldn't have happened.

I am contemplating taking my five day vacation soon. I am not sure what I want to do with it, but I want to get away from everything and everyone here soon. I just need to breathe and not feel like I have to go to work, or whatever. I am tired of being around people constantly. I wouldn't mind slowing down, and spending time away.

I applied for a part-time job at this little books store down the street from where I work, called Amethyst Books and Gifts. They don't need help right now, but they also asked if I was willing to dress up in Faery garb once in a while during their festivals, and I said I could try. I don't do theatrics, but it would be fun to dress up and be around people just to be around them....of course, I wouldn't mind working for this place either. It is a New Age style store that caters to many different types of peoples. The incense is so soothing when you go in. If anything, working there would pay for all the lovely things that I want there....lol

~Raven

I know it's been a while since I have been on to write or even check on blogs  here.  I have been a little under the mental weather until just recently.  I am alright now, thanks to a wonderful new friend, and the sweetest person I have ever had the honor of feeling their positive energies!  Even though life is tough for her, she manages to brighten my challenging days with her messages.

I had an intense and wonderful thing happen to me last Tuesday evening concerning this new friend and Mackiclady....I have never had an experience like this, except for my friend, Avalon Dream, who is capable of walking in dreams.

Here's what happened...

I went in to this lovely gift shop that I sometimes go to, looking for something for my new friend, a little gift because she has sent me lovely little things here and there...and for Magicklady who has  done the same as well.

After agonizing over what I could send for both ladies, I chose a small Goddess offering for both of them, and some beautiful stones for my new friend...something to have to remind them that I am there and in their hearts....not much, but hopefully something.

I didn't realize this, but in the store was a healer....and when I went to pay for these gifts, she wanted to cleanse them and to send her healing to both of my friends...Magicklady and the new friend.  I didn't question her, and I didn't think twice...but the things she told me about both women astounded me, starting with the new friend, and her hardships...then on to Magicklady.

I will not go into detail about what the healer said, but only that she was sending her healing to my friends-on opposite ends of the country....and she was accurate, because when my new friend's letter came to me yesterday, it was completely amazing how accurate she was!!  I am still beside myself in awe over that experience!  I wish I could sit and chat with that healer again, and soon!  I want her to know that she is wonderful, and I am ever grateful because she showed me that I was meant to be this woman's friend, and even though she didn't say those words, I felt it in my heart!  I still have a warm feeling in my chest-for both Magicklady and my new friend!  I know this is my way of loving and supporting them completely!

However, what wasn't said, was something that I believe the Goddess Herself nudged into my mind during the encounter with the healer....and it's something very private and very intimate between She and I...a nudge that reminded me of who and what I am...a way for Her to tap me on the shoulder and remind me of what I am and what I need....She placed me in that store with my friend and Magicklady on my mind on purpose to help them, but also to let me know that She is there, and She loves me.

I was meant to have this experience, not only for myself, but for these two extraordinary women.  This has never really happened to me before, where I was at the point where I was ready to hear the words, and feel the experience that I had.  I think this will always be a treasure in my heart, and one that I will never forget exists.

Thanksgiving to the Goddess, and Her love for me.  She is ever near me now, and I will try not to stray from my path again.

Since the experience, I have been staying offline, trying to digest what had happened, and to figure out what my next move will be on my path.  I want to spend the next Moon giving thanks and love to Her, and I am still searching for Samhain ideas.  I want to work on the Craft more intently now that I am no longer unsure of my way.  It'll be hard, because my family still doesn't know and I still don't have privacy, but I am determined to make sure that I stay on the path I am supposed to be on...why else would I continue to come back everytime...after I change my mind and attempt to change my heart?  She knows me, and She showed me what is needed from me.

I have not really been ignoring anyone, but a few weeks ago, my cell phone met with an unfortunate accident that it never recovered from, and I am happy to announce the arrival of a new cell phone of from the same company, only a different model.  We are still getting to know each other, and getting to my sites online on a regular basis from it is proving a bit difficult for the moment, although we are working hard to get along and work together LOL  It's a good little phone, and really durable.  I hope that we have a nice relationship....with all the texting I have been doing lately, I wouldn't be surprised if the phone-which I have named Simon (LOL)-and I get along rather well.  I promise that I will get back to all of you as quickly as I can....even my computer has given me some difficulty...and the library has been busy most days, and I had only the desire to go  home and just read in the past week or so.

Has anyone else ever experienced something like I did this past Tuesday, or are like the healer I encountered?  I wonder what kinds of experiences you have had, and how it changed your lives...it would make some fascinating stories, I think!  I kknow I am looking forward to seeing if I ever have experiences like that again, it would make life even more awesome than it is now!!

You know what?  We humans rely too much on man made garbage....I say this KNOWING where I am posting this, and what I am using...and what I rely on to get here when I am not on  computer.....

We rely too much on electricity, gasoline, and the internet.  I know, I know!!  But Since Sunday, since Hurricane Ike, and the storms that flew north all the way through Ohio and up to Michigan and the Great Lakes, it just blows me away how impatient people are being over the whole affair....what do they expect-a magic wand waved over everything to make it all better in seconds?! 

I understand that many people HAVE to rely on electricity to stay alive in hospitals and nursing homes, but the rest of us can just wait it out, and get off our dead asses and HELP!!  OR send a note of encouragement to our electrical companies...those poor souls who are working hard to get everyone back to their addiction, which is electricity! 

It's so easy for us to take for granted that we have all of these things....it's crazy!  I don't understand why we need to have these things to amuse ourselves with...mindless entertainment that doesn't stretch the imagination.  It's no wonder we have such huge problems with mental illnesses and stresses!!  We have to find something mindless (television and video games, which really aren't) to take away from everyday normal stresses...and even THOSE cause more stress for our minds!!  What ever happened to taking a walk, reading a book (no, I am not a hypocrite, I have been reading books all week-I do that all the time), lighting candles and taking a bath?  What happened to just sitting and writing, art and photography to take our minds off of the things in the world that bother us....it's no wonder we need therapists....we cause ourselves to NOT slow down!!

Then the gasoline deal is just ludicrous!!  I am not even going to talk about that one....it's so stupid!! I am just tired of the whole entire sordid affair concerning this topic....makes me half ill just thinking about it on the rare ocassions that I do think on it!!!

After spending the week with all of Ohio, Kentucky, Indiana, and Michigan's ordeals, I am more convinced than ever that we need to find better situations...hell, Texas has it much worse, and I think we got off rather easy with severe storms and 85mph winds!!!  Ignorance and impatience get on my nerves.  I know this is affecting everyone's moods in the area, but it's nothing we can't deal with, so why all the garbage going on????

Alright, I am off my rant and my soap box for now....I just had to vent that somewhere!!!  Thank you for listening to that, and I am sorry that you had to read this subject from yours truly!! 

The only thing about this week is that I haven't been able to contact many people online to see if they were alright, that bothered me, but it's something that I couldn't help.  All I could do was send out energies to all of you and hope it reached you!  That's my only true complaint.

I haven't been able to do much writing over the past week, and I am bummed, but blame myself for laziness...oh and yes, reading Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer...I am sucked (no pun intended) into the entire Twighlight Saga....vampires and all!  LOL 

I am going to get off of my ass and get cracking on my novel....it won't get itself done, and I may be a witch, but that doesn't mean that the story will write itself, no matter how talented or gifted I could be...hehehehe!!

I have been having a weird week....I have been having dreams about a character/actor...I don't remember the dreams other than this guy.  Also the fact that I am getting the impression of the left hand.....I will put up a picture of the guy in a minute...

The character is Edward Cullen from Stephanie Meyer's Twighlight Saga, and the actor is Robert Pattison who plays him (if you aren't familiar with the name, he was in Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire..the one that got killed)....that is all I know.  He is a vampire, and that is also something that makes this fun....and he can't be the hero of the novel in my head-he is a man named Richard Armitage....combined with the darkness of Gackt.

At work over the past few days, I have encountered more left handed people than I am used to, and I am unsure of what this is supposed to mean...all but one of them were men....I am also happily left handed myself, so I am unsure of what this means, and why it was in the dreams or why I am dreaming of a character. 

I am trying to see if I can find a way to do recall on these dreams so that I can write them down, and someone can help me figure out what is going on!!

Call to her, give her reason...

Say her name, feel her heartbeat....

She will stay only for you, the Raven....

She will die only in your arms, the Darkest Angel....

Hear her blood singing in her veins, and wait....

The day will come, dear Raven, she will be eternity for you....

Search out her eyes, the color you have never seen...

Topaz rimmed in black, matching oceans deep....

Call to her, break her sleep...

Breathe her name from your lips, give her life....

Call to the Darkest Angel, Dearest Raven....

She is waiting beyond the fringe of life...

To come be one with your heart once again....

~Raven

16 September, 2008

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I finally found the exact image of Arianna....like her?