I wanted to mention this before I forgot, and I love all of you, and share almost everything with all of you.

As you know, I have been moving towards writing a lot recently.  I have been researching different types of writing sites, and what I found was that I will need a place that allows feedback and interaction with other writers and publishers...I found Writing.Com to be a place to be able to handle these needs.  It is a pay site, but not overly expensive for a meager writer like myself.  http://www.writing.com  is the site.

My profile there is:  http://Writing.Com/authors/raven1746  there's nothing there as of yet, but I plan to pay for the site to get all the benefits of the joint...lol

Also, if any of you are Lynn Kurland fans, her next Nine Kingdoms book comes out in January of 2009,  I love this author, and I recommend her to any and all who love time travel, history and romance:  http://www.lynnkurland.com/

I'm sorry that I haven't been around lately...it would seem that everytime I think I have a moment, my energy gets drained....and I really haven't wanted to talk about the goofy things happening in my life this week.

I am happily adjusting back into my regular routine at work, and trying to  keep the pms monster from intruding on my life there at work.  It was there all week long.

The weather has finally come down to nice quiet breezes that feel more like fall, and we are finally getting the rain we so desperately needed!  I am happy about that.

We have also been in birthday mode in my family for the last two weeks-first brother, then brother in law, then stepfather, then stepmom, then mom, and next is aunt's birthday....followed by nephew in October, then brother in November...then the holiday crush before it starts again with my birthday...lol  Ah well, the pains and joys of a big family...I have to admit that I love it.

This month seems to be running by so fast, I am barely catching my breath just trying to keep up with it, and I feel like I am accomplishing nothing in the process....not sinking, just going day by day until it ends.  I guess the people who says that life goes by fast once you hit thirty/thirty five were right....it's all I can do to try to slow things down anymore....

I have been sleeping with the help of Benadryl every night for the past few weeks because we have pinpointed my excessive itching of feet to an allergy-may be the chemicals we use at work, and it may be the dust that never seems to stop in both home and work....it got so bad, that I would scratch my feet bloody some days, I still have the marks on my feet.  It doesn't get as bad these days, but bad enough at night that I get frustrated to the point of tears.  I am finding different things to help me get through that, and one is Nivea Bath Oil...it seems to work and so does the Benadryl....so does Gold Bond...but it takes coating my feet in the stuff to finally get it to work.  At least my feet are soft and subtle now...lol

Anyway, the summer is coming to a close, and we will be hitting Indian Summer for a while and life will be fine...as long as I am not being pushed to my limits at work.  I am considering another job, or at the least, looking out for something different to do....maybe some training in a different field first.  I don't know.  I am just tired of the un-necessary stupidness of my job....I have been leaving that place every day with more than a huge sigh of releaf because each day is FINALLY over.  I hate doing that, but it's how it feels at the moment.

There are many things at home that are bothering me too.  I am tired of my brothers and what I am starting to call the "Little Prince" syndrom with both of them...they are both acting like the world has to stop what it's doing and do for them....not a "Willl you please", or "Do you have time to".  Not even a thank you or anything.  If I were to do that to them, they would both get mad and tell me that I can wait until they were finished with what they were doing.  Stupid!!  Tiring, and just plain aggravating to say the least.  Just wait til the next time, and see what I say to them when they tell me that I need to take them somewhere or I need to do something for them....I am going to remind them that our mother raised us with manners, and that they, as grown men, should be using them!!!  Sorry, quick rant over something stupid, I know, childish also....

I am going to spend the rest of the day and this weekend trying to do some things for myself and for the forum I am in...and it seems like I am doing a whole lot more than one of our Admins...and I am only Global Mod!!!  Oh, well....maybe I will start my own forum sooner or later....

Everyone have a great day!!

~Raven

Everyone's responses to my last post were priceless, thank you for that!  I didn't feel so bad for being a pack rat after those comments!  I got busy, so I didn't get to go and get some of those boxes out of the storage unit to sell...I am going this afternoon to put a  lot of those books in my Half Price Books green bag, and I will take them over this weekend or this week.

I am working in my mind again with the book I'd love to write....I have added a writer's forum to my list, which means I will be bumping the one where I am global mod down in priority...I love to read, but I must start writing instead of dreaming about it, eh?  I am going to go over and get my books on the subject of writing today, so that they are in my face and I can start to work on the different aspects of writing.

It's still hard for me to work on this novel at home because I have my computer in the room my brother is in, and I can't work in peace and quiet when he is around...not to mention, I don't want to invade his privacy all of the time, and I don't want to have to stop writing a scene because it's time for him to take a nap or wants his own privacy.  I am thinking of saving some money and going to the site he did to get a laptop computer, at least I can write anywhere, and without interuptions or having to stop.

I cannot wait for this week to start...one week closer to Mabon and to Fall!!  I am looking forward to this!  I love this time of year, and the cooler weather!  It's been so hot around here over the last few weeks, and no rain until yesterday that the leaves are already starting to fall because they are already dying...so sad!!

I am also looking forward to Samhain!!  I love that time so much!  So many magickal things in the air, and a chance to change and start anew!  I am preparing for both Mabon and Samhain...I want them both to be soo special for me!  I am searching inside of myself to see what I need for both.

I am glad that work is finally back to normal, that way I don't feel like such a pain in the backside everytime a break comes around-they take a cigarette break every forty-five minutes...I keep wanting to scream:  "Hello, we have to work, and you know that I quit!!  Why are you trying to infuence me back??"  I have backslide a bit over the last two weeks, I am soooo sorry!  I am trying, and these people have made it hard.  However, when I am back on my normal routine, it'll be easier because I can take my breaks when I am supposed to, and not be around them when I break...it'll definately be easier, and less stressful!

Everyone have a blessed day!!

Raven

Have you ever noticed that when you move, or are forced to take stock of the things you have in your home or storage units that YOU HAVE WAY TO MUCH JUNK??????

I have, this weekend.  I must have found a million things that I did not know that I possessed!!  What do I need with cables and wires that I have no clue as to what they go to?  I don't know, but aparently I must have needed them at  one point....Where the BLEEP did ALL those trashy novels come from???  How should I know,  have I even READ all of them?!  There must have been 15 or so boxes (they are going to the used book store this week).

I am telling you my friends, I must have dusted off three coffee makers, and two were broken!  Now, why would I keep things like that?? They weren't even fixable at that point...sheesh!

I found the crafts supplies that I had gotten bored with once the initial "ooo's" and ah's" were over with...then there was the box with things in it that leave me questioning my own sanity...where did such trashy things come from???  Must have been another stupid phase brought on by boredom!! 

I did find things that I had forgotten, but realized that I needed and will still use-my books on writing and grammar, at least something in there is worth it all!!  Oh, and yes, I found all of my aromatherapy books, so that means  I am pretty much set....lol

Throughout all of this, I am wondering why I need so much.  It all seems to be a waste of space in a world where I don't have any space for the time being....it's time to start getting rid of the clothes that I don't need, and stop wondering why one woman living on her own needs about a gazillion towels and sheets for one body and one bed....and why I have a drawer filled with clothes that are beyond repair that even a crazy person wouldn't wear...

As I stated, I am going to sell those old books at the used book store.  I have decided that I will go through them and decide which ones I want to keep....I have a rule at the moment that will be stretched by the time this is over:  ONLY one box, maybe two at the most full of books.

I found a lot of old VHS tapes that I know that I will never watch again unless I wanted to walk down memory lane, and DVDs that are better off at the used stores as well....I would have a garage sale, but that would just make people shake their heads and wonder what kind of nut I really am...no, they are going straight to the used stores so that I can get something out of them....the tapes won't get anything, and likely end up in the trash, but at least I will try...

So, I spent my Labor Day Weekend ACTUALLY laboring over the junk that is now my life....lovely fun!!

I also spent some of the weekend in utmost clarity of who and what I am...I know, here it goes again, it seems...but not really....it was just that I needed to see me beneath the dusty junk and from an interesting perspective....and I realized that I am tired of hiding behind a symbol, and I am tired of being "accepted" for what that symbol represents...I am not a symbol, or that junk in my storage unit, I am something more, and I won't hide it any longer!

I'm sorry, my friends, I am frustrated because I have to spend one last week doing that other job....because we are playing musical jobs until another employee comes back to work, the lady I temporarily replaced is back, but another went on vacation...oh well, three more days, and I am done with what I am calling a stupid waste of my time-at least the lady who came back will make sure that I don't sit around taking breaks every forty-five minutes!!!  I cannot wait for this to end!

I am also going to start writing again, it seems that I have the seed of a novel sitting in my head and  I am going to begin with short story and move forward...we shall see!!

Everyone have a great evening!!

I haven't been on much lately...just too much going on in other areas....especially in a forum that requires some of my online attention more than any other place I have been.  So, I apologize for not checking up on everyone here to make sure things are alright.

The blast from the past seems to be somewhat of a hypocrite, and I haven't spoken to him or even recieved an email from him since last Monday...no biggie, I would rather stay true to myself, and to Hell with those out there who are like he is...whatever.

It has been an interesting and ironic couple of weeks, politically, and I am personally laughing at things that are going on there, but I have no desire to get into politics much, but to say that this will be an interesting campaign to say the least...lol

My work schedule is back to normal, and I am back to my own job, cleaning up after the chaos that was the people doing my job for the past three weeks!  It's frustrating, but I believe that by the end of this week, my work area will be back to the way I like it....clean and organized.

I have also gotten back into snail mail...am about to head on over to a group to add myself to the list there....an excuse to use my Hallmark Gold Crown Card and feed into my stationary/card/Yankee Candle obssessions...lol  I love to write, as everyone very well knows, and this is a perfect outlet for that as well.  It's fun to me!

I have also been sucked into reading Stephanie Meyers' Twighlight series....although this is a young adult series, I find it to be very well written and intriguing to say the least.  The imagery that Meyers uses is simply brilliant.  Escapism at it's ultimate best....different from Karen Marie Moning, Christine Feehan, and Diana Gabaldon, but still wonderful for those who like any of these lovely writers.  http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight.html  I highly recommend it to anyone.

Of course, reading has taken center stage of my life recently, I finally got into reading more Nora Roberts, and have found the Sign Of Seven trilogy to be wonderful as well....I can't wait to read the last book in that trilogy, but it comes out in November.

Also, for those who love the Eragon series by young Mr. Christopher Paolini, the next in the series is BRISINGER and it will be out September 20, 2008.  I am looking forward to reading the next novel.  Of course, I am very impressed by Christopher because he began writing this when he was only fifeteen or sixteen, and he is now on the National Best Seller's lists and he isn't even 24 years old!  He definately has talent!!  I get inspired just by reading his story, and his novels....of course, I am a fan of the big fat novels!! http://www.alagaesia.com/index.php

Reading has taken up the majority of my time this past week, mainly because I love to read, and it keeps me out of trouble...lol

Everyone have a great day!!

~Raven