I feel bad.  I have been neglecting my Myspace and LiveJournal for a little while now...I don't know why I have so many places to write about things....half the time, I am not writing about the same things anywhere, and it's just funny to watch my personality split to accommodate all of these sites.

On Myspace, I don't talk about the things I talk about here because i fear certain friends will never understand...especially since the one person in general is messed up in the head, and I am convinced that the war did some crazy things to a mind that was already having troubles grasping ahold of the roles of women in society and other religions-including the Protestants...he has become worse in his bigotry over the last year or so, and I am thinking that he is slowly disconnecting from me as a friend...sad to say our friendship is dwindling and dying before my eyes, but it's true.  However, there are other reasons to continue to be like I am on Myspace...my brother and sister are in my friends' list, and they tell Mom everything!!! 

Then there's my beloved LiveJournal, which i have neglected a lot recently....I used to speak in mainly verse there because it is aptly called:  A Versemaker's Mind...nice, huh?  I have just posted an entry for the first time in 4 weeks there.  I should be ashamed because I have been on that site since April of 2006...and I have written more in this blog than there...I need to get my head back to where it needs to be.  I wrote poetry there, and about my life in general, and about me...I miss going to that site like I should go. 

Then there's blogspot...ok, I don't go there that much, and sometimes I don't have much to say there because it is, for the most part, not a social site like here or Myspace-or any other 'space' for that matter-it's more a place to just write...and there I write about things that no one here would understand, and was the central focus for my spiritual warfare...the one that I semi-raged here and very few knew, or picked up on...I am worried about that site because it is the only link to my dearest Mountain Celt, and while I want to go forward with writing there as I do here more often as not, I am not certain how my dearest friend will take it because she is Christian, but she is accepting of me in any and all that I do, and I know she will be fine now, knowing that I no longer ping pong back and forth on religion...she loves me dearly, and so I have kept that blog up as much for her as for me...although, I still write similarly between here and there, there was a lot of differences and thought weavings there.  I may still be fighting a spiritual war within myself, but at least I am focused on finding out what it is that i am meant for, and how I will proceed on my paths.

Then, there's Covenspace...the mirror for the other pagan "spaces" that I have been on.  I come here and do things completely different.  I am pretty much obsessed with this site because I love all of you  here.   For some reason, I can be more open and forthcoming with my words...the versemaker in me loves sharing because I get such a reaction out of people here...people willing to open their hearts and their minds to share what they think of what others write...giving advice, insight, and love to others.  I don't fear much censure here because everyone here is what they are....although, I don't share everything with Covenspace in my blogs, I share the majority of myself...it makes a lot of sense....I have written quite a lot of blogs here.  I had a lot to share with people here for some reason.  Reading my first posts here the other week, I couldn't help but smile over the friends that I have made and the ones who continue to warm my heart and have become brothers and sisters to me in the course of the past year or so....yes, I believe that my addiction with Myspace in the beginning was replaced with an addiction to my beloved Covenspace because I come here first, and I often think of what I would share with my Covenspace family.

I even laugh now when I chat with friends online or on the phone...we reffer to this place as CS...and that is just going to show that many of us here have considered this so much a home, and a comfortable one at that, that shortening the name is common place.

Then there are the other places I go, newer ones that I haven't spent much time on...AC, KSC, Wicca Online, etc...I am not sure how many of these other "spaces" that  I need anymore...

Then there is the website...a new place that must take away some of my journal/blog time...I am happy with the new site, even though I need to finish editing and working it out...but it may end up replacing other sites, and giving freedoms if that is what I need for the moment.

Yes, I have many voices on many different sites...I play with my heart in my words where ever I go...maybe I do too much writing about various things to the point where I am becoming disorganized beyond redemption, but that is alright for now...I have friends in many places, and I am so happy that I have them...

When I get my new place, which I am going to spend the majority of the next week searching for, I will be able to organize every site and work in each one daily...or I will figure out which of them are not necessary to my personal wellbeing and are redundant.....

My friends, I don't know wny I wrote about this today, only that I felt that I needed to for some reason...I am goofy.

Everyone have a great evening, I am off to spend the evening with yon Robin of Locksley in the Hood.....know that you are all in my heart!

~Raven

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