Everyone's responses to my last post were priceless, thank you for that!  I didn't feel so bad for being a pack rat after those comments!  I got busy, so I didn't get to go and get some of those boxes out of the storage unit to sell...I am going this afternoon to put a  lot of those books in my Half Price Books green bag, and I will take them over this weekend or this week.

I am working in my mind again with the book I'd love to write....I have added a writer's forum to my list, which means I will be bumping the one where I am global mod down in priority...I love to read, but I must start writing instead of dreaming about it, eh?  I am going to go over and get my books on the subject of writing today, so that they are in my face and I can start to work on the different aspects of writing.

It's still hard for me to work on this novel at home because I have my computer in the room my brother is in, and I can't work in peace and quiet when he is around...not to mention, I don't want to invade his privacy all of the time, and I don't want to have to stop writing a scene because it's time for him to take a nap or wants his own privacy.  I am thinking of saving some money and going to the site he did to get a laptop computer, at least I can write anywhere, and without interuptions or having to stop.

I cannot wait for this week to start...one week closer to Mabon and to Fall!!  I am looking forward to this!  I love this time of year, and the cooler weather!  It's been so hot around here over the last few weeks, and no rain until yesterday that the leaves are already starting to fall because they are already dying...so sad!!

I am also looking forward to Samhain!!  I love that time so much!  So many magickal things in the air, and a chance to change and start anew!  I am preparing for both Mabon and Samhain...I want them both to be soo special for me!  I am searching inside of myself to see what I need for both.

I am glad that work is finally back to normal, that way I don't feel like such a pain in the backside everytime a break comes around-they take a cigarette break every forty-five minutes...I keep wanting to scream:  "Hello, we have to work, and you know that I quit!!  Why are you trying to infuence me back??"  I have backslide a bit over the last two weeks, I am soooo sorry!  I am trying, and these people have made it hard.  However, when I am back on my normal routine, it'll be easier because I can take my breaks when I am supposed to, and not be around them when I break...it'll definately be easier, and less stressful!

Everyone have a blessed day!!

Raven

Have you ever noticed that when you move, or are forced to take stock of the things you have in your home or storage units that YOU HAVE WAY TO MUCH JUNK??????

I have, this weekend.  I must have found a million things that I did not know that I possessed!!  What do I need with cables and wires that I have no clue as to what they go to?  I don't know, but aparently I must have needed them at  one point....Where the BLEEP did ALL those trashy novels come from???  How should I know,  have I even READ all of them?!  There must have been 15 or so boxes (they are going to the used book store this week).

I am telling you my friends, I must have dusted off three coffee makers, and two were broken!  Now, why would I keep things like that?? They weren't even fixable at that point...sheesh!

I found the crafts supplies that I had gotten bored with once the initial "ooo's" and ah's" were over with...then there was the box with things in it that leave me questioning my own sanity...where did such trashy things come from???  Must have been another stupid phase brought on by boredom!! 

I did find things that I had forgotten, but realized that I needed and will still use-my books on writing and grammar, at least something in there is worth it all!!  Oh, and yes, I found all of my aromatherapy books, so that means  I am pretty much set....lol

Throughout all of this, I am wondering why I need so much.  It all seems to be a waste of space in a world where I don't have any space for the time being....it's time to start getting rid of the clothes that I don't need, and stop wondering why one woman living on her own needs about a gazillion towels and sheets for one body and one bed....and why I have a drawer filled with clothes that are beyond repair that even a crazy person wouldn't wear...

As I stated, I am going to sell those old books at the used book store.  I have decided that I will go through them and decide which ones I want to keep....I have a rule at the moment that will be stretched by the time this is over:  ONLY one box, maybe two at the most full of books.

I found a lot of old VHS tapes that I know that I will never watch again unless I wanted to walk down memory lane, and DVDs that are better off at the used stores as well....I would have a garage sale, but that would just make people shake their heads and wonder what kind of nut I really am...no, they are going straight to the used stores so that I can get something out of them....the tapes won't get anything, and likely end up in the trash, but at least I will try...

So, I spent my Labor Day Weekend ACTUALLY laboring over the junk that is now my life....lovely fun!!

I also spent some of the weekend in utmost clarity of who and what I am...I know, here it goes again, it seems...but not really....it was just that I needed to see me beneath the dusty junk and from an interesting perspective....and I realized that I am tired of hiding behind a symbol, and I am tired of being "accepted" for what that symbol represents...I am not a symbol, or that junk in my storage unit, I am something more, and I won't hide it any longer!

I'm sorry, my friends, I am frustrated because I have to spend one last week doing that other job....because we are playing musical jobs until another employee comes back to work, the lady I temporarily replaced is back, but another went on vacation...oh well, three more days, and I am done with what I am calling a stupid waste of my time-at least the lady who came back will make sure that I don't sit around taking breaks every forty-five minutes!!!  I cannot wait for this to end!

I am also going to start writing again, it seems that I have the seed of a novel sitting in my head and  I am going to begin with short story and move forward...we shall see!!

Everyone have a great evening!!

I haven't been on much lately...just too much going on in other areas....especially in a forum that requires some of my online attention more than any other place I have been.  So, I apologize for not checking up on everyone here to make sure things are alright.

The blast from the past seems to be somewhat of a hypocrite, and I haven't spoken to him or even recieved an email from him since last Monday...no biggie, I would rather stay true to myself, and to Hell with those out there who are like he is...whatever.

It has been an interesting and ironic couple of weeks, politically, and I am personally laughing at things that are going on there, but I have no desire to get into politics much, but to say that this will be an interesting campaign to say the least...lol

My work schedule is back to normal, and I am back to my own job, cleaning up after the chaos that was the people doing my job for the past three weeks!  It's frustrating, but I believe that by the end of this week, my work area will be back to the way I like it....clean and organized.

I have also gotten back into snail mail...am about to head on over to a group to add myself to the list there....an excuse to use my Hallmark Gold Crown Card and feed into my stationary/card/Yankee Candle obssessions...lol  I love to write, as everyone very well knows, and this is a perfect outlet for that as well.  It's fun to me!

I have also been sucked into reading Stephanie Meyers' Twighlight series....although this is a young adult series, I find it to be very well written and intriguing to say the least.  The imagery that Meyers uses is simply brilliant.  Escapism at it's ultimate best....different from Karen Marie Moning, Christine Feehan, and Diana Gabaldon, but still wonderful for those who like any of these lovely writers.  http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight.html  I highly recommend it to anyone.

Of course, reading has taken center stage of my life recently, I finally got into reading more Nora Roberts, and have found the Sign Of Seven trilogy to be wonderful as well....I can't wait to read the last book in that trilogy, but it comes out in November.

Also, for those who love the Eragon series by young Mr. Christopher Paolini, the next in the series is BRISINGER and it will be out September 20, 2008.  I am looking forward to reading the next novel.  Of course, I am very impressed by Christopher because he began writing this when he was only fifeteen or sixteen, and he is now on the National Best Seller's lists and he isn't even 24 years old!  He definately has talent!!  I get inspired just by reading his story, and his novels....of course, I am a fan of the big fat novels!! http://www.alagaesia.com/index.php

Reading has taken up the majority of my time this past week, mainly because I love to read, and it keeps me out of trouble...lol

Everyone have a great day!!

~Raven

Walk through the dream with me.
Tell me exactly what you see
In this true delighted fantasy.

Sing the song of delight.
Listen to the sounds of lovers' light
And dance in merryment through the night.

Run through the greats dreams.
Show the world that true light beams,
And then you'll realize what it means.

Dance the the heartbeat like a drum.
Fell the vibrations through veins it will hum,
The heart and mind will not be an unequal sum.

Dream so sweetly, shiver and sigh.
The way one does when snow and sun is night,
The shivers of love give off those feelings that are just right.

In loves warmest embrace be so bold.
A lover's heart you will always warmly hold,
As the story of love continues to be told.
~Raven
24 August 2008

I just had a blast from the past this week.

A high school classmate whom I haven't seen in twenty years contacted me via another site....no I am not feeling old, my friends, I am just happy to hear from someone who I have found that I have some things in common with, and I never knew it when we were in school together.

He is a very nice guy, though in school, he was like me, quiet and out of the way of oncoming popular traffic.  He was one of those guys you see who is lanky and average...the one you KNOW in your heart is going to grow into himself and become HOT!!  This guy definately is, and I knew it a long time ago!  He's also divorced, with two little boys.  His divorce was recent, but I am sure that it will be nice to just chat via email like we have been doing for two days...but man, is this guy gorgeous now, I knew he would be!!!

We talked about the old school, and how he went to the reunion, and it was sad that I wasn't there, that we could have practiced our sarcastic streak on the classmates, because they hadn't changed at all...except in obvious looks and attitudes....one-up manship must have been at an all time high last Saturday night...glad I wasn't there to burst a lot of bubbles, and bring some people down to earth.

I told J about my poetry, and he thought it was great that I am so creative....I didn't share any with him yet, we have only been chatting for two days now, so I thought it would be wise not to yet...

We talked about our favorite Broadway plays and movies...the usual.  I am reluctant to find out why he is divorced because it's none of my business.  I think that is appropriate, don't you?  He barely remembers me from school too, so we are basic strangers.

We both agreed that both of us need to get off our derrieres and go out and meet people...that sitting at home does nothing for us single folks in the world.

He's currently looking to  move back to the old hometown to be closer to his sons-5 and 2, and I saw pictures of these boys, they are so adorable!!  I hope he does, because that's what he's wanted for some time.

I talk about him now, because it's awesome to see that I was right, that time did change this man to who and what he is now.  It also proves my intuition was right all those years ago, and it answers some basic questions about myself as a whole...the ones that need to be answered.

There's also the explanation of my dream the night before he requested my friendship....in the dream, I was with a guy who my brain said I used to know, and we were "together" in a sense...well, not sexually, but in a friendship way, chatting in a place I don't recognize, but in the dream, it was a place where all the kids went after school....anyway, in the dream, I was comparing the younger man in my mind with an older version...

I don't know if J has anything to do with this, but it is odd that I had that dream before his request...maybe I am just over reacting because I am into the full swing of things these days.

I just wanted to share this with all of you, because it is a sweet moment in my life, and I need those these days...especially when that sweet moment is contact with the male of our species...

~Raven